The wonders of love. ♥

Yesterday we can say was an adventure in the sense that I have not had a depression episode like I did in a very long time. Thankfully, God gave Jordan a vast amount of patients and more importantly gave him the ability to see past my depression and still love me the same. Through all of that and once we were able to talk that night things worked themselves out.

I keep having this thought and I believe it was part of why I had such a horrible episode yesterday (other than the fact that school shall we say is like poison in my veins and this semester was not good at all). God showed me yesterday that Jordan really loves HIM and because of that Jordan can love me. If Jordan didn't love God the way he does then he wouldn't be able to love me the way he does. I'm not saying he wouldn't love me but it wouldn't be the true, pure, unconditional, Godly love that he has for me.

Also admittedly I'm very difficult when I'm not depressed and when I am, well I'm just impossible! and honestly if I was an outsider looking at me I would just want to say "just knock it off and grow up!" But, Jordan didn't do that. Yes, he had to be the "bad cop" but he did it lovingly and from 800 miles away. He also reminded me that God loves me and that everything will be a-okay.

But this isn't what this post is really about...

There's just been such a dramatic, slow change for both of us since we started talking/dating. We are not the same people and well the explanation is God has entered our hearts and we are obeying Him to the best of our ability (due to the fact that we will always have sinful natures.) Neither of us are perfect and never expect to be. But God still loves us.

These verses really stuck out to me today when I was reading my bible and I wanted to share them with you. (the real reason behind this post)

1 John 2:1-6

My dear children, I am writing this to you so that you will not sin. But if you do sin, there is someone to plead for you before the Father. He is Jesus Christ, the one who pleases God completely.He is the sacrifice for our sins. He takes away not only our sins but the sins of all the world. And how can we be sure that we belong to him? By obeying his commandments. If someone says, "I belong to God," but doesn't obey God's commandments, that person is a liar and does not live in the truth. But those who obey God's word really do love him. That is the way to know whether or not we live in him. Those who say they live in God should live their lives as Christ did.

1 John 4:7-10

Dear friends, let us continue to love one another, for love comes from God. Anyone who loves is born of God and knows God. But anyone who does not love does not know God--for God is love. God showed how much he loved us by sending his only Son into the world so that we might have eternal life through him. This is real love. It is not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as a sacrifice to take away our sins.

Okay that's more than enough for now. Loves!