Oh my what a semester it has been! I'm so glad that it is almost over; 2 more classes and 5 finals. I must say that Shippensburg has been quite the experience. In agreement with my mom, Shippensburg was not a complete waste of time because staying in high school was not the answer and I got a husband out of it. :)
Admittedly, I did not give 100% of my best and I did allow my depression get the best of me and according to Jordan, I will just do better next time around. Which I will! It's not that I do not like school; it is the fact that I do not like the "school environment." I'm very excited about starting up school again in January. I will be majoring still in English and will get a certification in Human Resource Management. (yes I will more than likely be taking the intro to online learning while I am in Kingsland but I'm not starting full time till we move to North Carolina) I will agree that my brain has turned to mush and that it is being starved of knowledge but once I start writing just to write that should help nourish it. (and as I am typing this my red butterfly chair broke :[ )
Something else that I have realized. That even though I have fallen, God always helps me back to my feet: no matter what. I am so grateful for all the second chances that I have been given. You know how some people have a list of things they want to do before they die? Well, I don't really have anything like that but what I do want to do before I go home to be with the Lord is to actually live my life. Not for me, but for Him. He gave it back to me and I want to live a life that shows Him how thankful I am for it. It is not easy and I wish it was but then I never have been the type of person to take the easy road and to go cautiously. I jump in with both feet. (it does get me in trouble sometimes) But, that is my goal. To start living my life completely for Him and to do the very best that I can, even when my depression/anxiety tell me I can't.
1 John 2:3-6 And how can we be sure that we belong to him? By obeying his commandments. If someone says,"I belong to God," but doesn't obey God's commandments, that person is a liar and does not live in the truth. But those who obey God's word really do love him. That is the way to know whether or not we live in him. Those who say they live in God should live their lives as Christ did.
(I highly recommend reading 1,2&3 John! http://www.blueletterbible.org/Bible.cfm?b=1Jo&c=1&v=1&t=NLT#top )
There are no words to explain HOW excited I am about getting married! Honestly, it still baffles me that I am marring Jordan Travis...I mean come on! I've known him foreverrrrr and here he and I both were looking else where and we both had just given up. Then all it took was one hug, 4 times of asking for my number, endless hours texting and then 3 to 4 hour phone calls and here we are 6 months later and in 134 days we'll be married and together till death separates us. It is so amazing and I am thankful beyond words that God brought us together. Jordan is my life saver here on earth. His endless amount of patiences (that I test daily, without trying), understanding, and love are more than I deserve. Sigh :) He's the bestest. I love him oh so much!
Alright enough mushy, gushiness. *giggles* Loves!
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